Erida Siqeca Petriti
\nP\u00cbSHP\u00cbRITJA E ER\u00cbS
\nTregim
\nXhoana iu afrua port\u00ebs s\u00eb sht\u00ebpis\u00eb s\u00eb braktisur, o t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn asaj q\u00eb kishte ngelur prej saj dhe e pushtoi nj\u00eb ndjesi \u00ebmb\u00eblsie. Kishte koh\u00eb q\u00eb nuk kish shkelur n\u00eb at\u00eb vend, por kujtimet ishin t\u00eb gjalla.
\nU kthye mbrapsh n\u00eb koh\u00eb , n\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebrin\u00eb e larg\u00ebt, pik\u00ebrisht n\u00eb periudh\u00ebn kur ishte nd\u00ebrtuar sht\u00ebpia, gati 35 vjet m\u00eb par\u00eb. Kujtoi si ishte ngritur nga t\u00eb af\u00ebrmit , burra me t\u00eb tjera profesione, t\u00eb cil\u00ebt nevoja, n\u00eb at\u00eb rast, i b\u00ebri arkitekt\u00eb, inxhinier\u00eb, topograf\u00eb, por edhe pun\u00ebtor\u00eb e murator\u00eb\u2026 edhe pse pa asnj\u00eb studim a p\u00ebrvoj\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb fush\u00eb, dhe buz\u00ebqeshi me krenari.
\nBurra t\u00eb kultur\u00ebs dhe idealeve t\u00eb larta, pra armiq t\u00eb betuar t\u00eb diktatur\u00ebs.
\nRegjimi tiranik i kishte privuar nga gjith\u00eb \u00e7\u2019kishin: sht\u00ebpi, pun\u00eb, mall, pasuri dhe i kish degdisur n\u00eb at\u00eb fshat t\u00eb humbur, vet\u00ebm me rrobat q\u00eb kishin n\u00eb trup.
\nStalla ishte ajo q\u00eb diktatura u kishte dh\u00ebn\u00eb p\u00ebr banes\u00eb. Vet\u00ebm forca e
\nshpirtit dhe solidariteti me nj\u00ebri-tjetrin kishte b\u00ebr\u00eb t\u00eb mundur t\u00eb rifillonim p\u00ebrs\u00ebri edhe pse me shum\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsi.
\nIu kujtua kur hodh\u00ebn themelet: ishte ver\u00eb dhe b\u00ebnte vap\u00eb.
\nSht\u00ebpia duhej t\u00eb nd\u00ebrtohej n\u00eb ver\u00eb, p\u00ebrndryshe uji mund t\u00eb infiltronte duke rrezikuar rr\u00ebzimin . K\u00ebshtu i kishte shpjeguar i ati.
\nMendoi p\u00ebr ata njer\u00ebz q\u00eb kishin ndihmuar n\u00eb nd\u00ebrtimin e saj , shumica e t\u00eb cil\u00ebve tashm\u00eb kishin vdekur. Nga malli syt\u00eb iu mbush\u00ebn me lot\u00eb.
\nVinin p\u00ebr t\u00eb ndihmuar pas pun\u00ebs n\u00eb kooperativ\u00eb, me q\u00ebllim q\u00eb ta p\u00ebrfundonin para se t\u00eb fillonte
\ndimri.
\nPasi hodh\u00ebn themelet, duhej t\u00eb ngrinin muret, por ishin pa tulla dhe
\ns\u2019 kishin as lek\u00eb. Tani, pas 35 vitesh, mund t\u00eb duket e pabesueshme,
\nnj\u00eb realizim i pamundur, por n\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb askush nuk e humbi toruan.
\nN\u00eb nj\u00eb lloj kutie katrore prej druri, nj\u00eb kall\u00ebp i ndar\u00eb n\u00eb dy pjes\u00eb,
\nduke p\u00ebrzier balt\u00eb me r\u00ebr\u00eb dhe uj\u00eb dhe duke e punuar derisa t\u00eb b\u00ebhej nj\u00eb si brum\u00eb i fort\u00eb, i dhan\u00eb form\u00eb tullave t\u00eb fresk\u00ebta.
\nNj\u00eb dit\u00eb prej dit\u00ebsh kutit\u00eb ishin b\u00ebr\u00eb disa, aty rreth nj\u00ebzet\u00eb, at\u00ebher\u00eb edhe Xhoana kishte filluar t\u00eb jepte nj\u00eb dor\u00eb.
\nT\u00eb rriturit mbushnin kall\u00ebpet, dhe ajo me disa kush\u00ebrinj m\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdhenj, i merrnin dhe i zbraznin, p\u00ebr t\u2019i l\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb thaheshin n\u00eb diell.
\nI quanin plithar\u00eb, nj\u00eb em\u00ebr qesharak q\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb e b\u00ebnte t\u00eb qeshte…
\nKishin p\u00ebrgatitur shum\u00eb, shum\u00eb fare dhe m\u00eb pas, kur ishin t\u00eb thata, kishin
\nfilluar t’i p\u00ebrdornin p\u00ebr muret.
\nPak nga pak sht\u00ebpia mori form\u00eb. Sa her\u00eb q\u00eb kthehej nga shkolla shihte
\nmuret gjithnj\u00eb e m\u00eb t\u00eb larta, derisa nj\u00eb dit\u00eb i gjeti sip\u00ebr edhe \u00e7atin\u00eb.
\n\u00c7far\u00eb lumturie at\u00eb dit\u00eb! K\u00ebrcente e g\u00ebzuar, gjithandej. M\u00eb n\u00eb fund do t\u00eb kishte dhom\u00ebn e saj. Shkuan t\u00eb banonin kur ishte akoma e pambaruar. Nuk kishte suva n\u00ebp\u00ebr mure. N\u00eb tavan dukeshin trar\u00ebt e drurit q\u00eb e tmerronin. I ati i kishte shpjeguar q\u00eb p\u00ebr at\u00eb dim\u00ebr do rrinin ashtu, por jo p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb pasi ai vet\u00eb do p\u00ebrkujdesej q\u00eb t\u00eb sistemonte \u00e7do gj\u00eb dhe sht\u00ebpia e tyre e \u00ebndrrave do ishte perfekte.<\/p>\n
Xhoan\u00ebs iu kujtua q\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb af\u00ebrmit(p\u00ebrfshi xhaxhain, dajat dhe xhaxhallar\u00ebt e t\u00eb atit) erdh\u00ebn edhe nja dy her\u00eb t\u00eb tjera p\u00ebr t\u00eb mbuluar trar\u00ebt dhe punuan derisa arrit\u00ebn n\u00eb b\u00ebrjen e nj\u00eb tavani krejt\u00ebsisht t\u00eb shesht\u00eb.
\nE n\u00eb fund, i ati, pas pune, filloi t\u00eb suvatonte muret duke i l\u00ebmuar me kujdes t\u00eb madh me nj\u00eb mjet q\u00eb quhej mistri. M\u00eb par\u00eb mbaronte nj\u00eb mur, pastaj nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr e nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr akoma.
\nN\u00eb fillim dhom\u00ebn e gjumit t\u00eb prind\u00ebrve, ku flinte dhe ajo ngaq\u00eb kishte frik\u00eb t\u00eb rrinte vet\u00ebm, pastaj kuzhin\u00ebn, korridorin, dhe n\u00eb fund dhom\u00ebn e saj t\u00eb gjumit.
\nM\u00eb pas e \u00ebma kishte filluar t\u00eb lyente me g\u00eblqere muret, por iu desh\u00ebn shum\u00eb duar dhe mund para se t\u00eb b\u00ebheshin t\u00eb bardh\u00eb si bora.
\nI ati kishte punuar shum\u00eb dhe pand\u00ebrprerje gjat\u00eb dimrit e megjithat\u00eb puna n\u00eb at\u00eb sht\u00ebpi nuk kishte t\u00eb mbaruar.
\nVer\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr e kishte radh\u00ebn dyshemeja. Deri n\u00eb at\u00eb moment e \u00ebma e kishte rregulluar duke mbledhur bajga lop\u00ebsh dhe balt\u00eb me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn krijonte nj\u00eb lloj p\u00ebrzierje dhe lyente komplet sheshin.
\nXhoan\u00ebs i vinte v\u00ebshtir\u00eb, por e \u00ebma q\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb grua praktike i kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb q\u00eb derisa ta shtronin me \u00e7imento, ajo ishte e vetmja zgjidhje.
\nDhe n\u00eb fakt k\u00ebshtu ndodhi. Ver\u00ebn e ardhshme, kur \u00e7do gj\u00eb thahej shpejt nga nxeht\u00ebsia, sht\u00ebpia u mbush prap\u00eb me t\u00eb af\u00ebrm q\u00eb filluan t\u00eb p\u00ebrgatisnin \u00e7imenton p\u00ebr ta shtruar n\u00eb dyshemen\u00eb prej dheu.
\nAjo u ndje me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb e lumtur.
\nK\u00ebshtu mendonte aty p\u00ebrball\u00eb rr\u00ebnojave nd\u00ebrsa faqet e albumit t\u00eb kujtimeve po shfletoheshin nj\u00ebra pas tjetr\u00ebs derisa e shpun\u00eb n\u00eb adoleshenc\u00eb, tek dashuria e saj e par\u00eb. Ai ishte djali i komshis\u00eb. Luanin gjithmon\u00eb bashk\u00eb, q\u00ebkur ishin t\u00eb vegj\u00ebl por u frekuentuan me m\u00eb shum\u00eb intensitet kur u rrit\u00ebn disi.
\nE \u00ebma ia kishte ndaluar ta takonte. I kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb:
\n\u201cXhoana ti nuk je m\u00eb vajz\u00eb e vog\u00ebl dhe as f\u00ebmija e dikurshme. Tashm\u00eb je nj\u00eb zonjush\u00eb dhe zonjushat e mira nuk shkojn\u00eb t\u00eb luajn\u00eb hapa- dollapa me djemt\u00eb. Tani e tutje duhet t\u00eb rrish n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, t\u00eb ndihmosh me pun\u00ebt, t\u00eb gatuash, t\u00eb qendis\u00ebsh. Kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb ajo \u00e7ka duhet t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb e mosh\u00ebs t\u00ebnde.\u201d
\nXhoana kishte pohuar me kok\u00eb, por brenda vetes e dinte q\u00eb nuk do bindej.
\nI dukej absurde ajo q\u00eb e \u00ebma i k\u00ebrkonte.
\nSi mund t\u00eb hiqte dor\u00eb nga Miri? E dinte n\u00ebna e vet \u00e7far\u00eb rrahjeje zemre ai i provokonte, sa drith\u00ebrima?
\nKur prind\u00ebrit t\u00eb shkonin n\u00eb pun\u00eb, si \u00e7do dit\u00eb dhe pasi t\u00eb mbaronte shpejt e shpejt detyrimet e saj, do t\u00eb ishte e lir\u00eb.
\nP\u00ebr t\u00eb vrar\u00eb m\u00ebrzin\u00eb do ftonte Mirin t\u2019i b\u00ebnte shoq\u00ebri. Asnj\u00ebher\u00eb s\u2019kishte shkuar tek sht\u00ebpia e tij. Nuk i p\u00eblqente.
\nMiri do vinte menj\u00ebher\u00eb. S\u2019do t\u2019ia b\u00ebnte fjal\u00ebn dysh. Si mashkull q\u00eb ishte, nuk kishte pun\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb.
\nN\u00eb nj\u00eb nga k\u00ebto takime ndodhi ajo s\u00eb cil\u00ebs e \u00ebma i trembej.
\nU dogj nd\u00ebrsa gatuante n\u00eb stuf\u00ebn me dru. Miri, i shqet\u00ebsuar, shkoi
\nta ndihmonte.
\nIshte ai \u00e7asti q\u00eb, m\u00eb n\u00eb fund, gjeti kurajon t\u2019i thoshte:
\n\u201cShiko se, sipas mamit tim, ti nuk duhet t\u00eb jesh k\u00ebtu dhe un\u00eb nuk duhet t\u00eb t\u00eb takoj m\u00eb!\u201d
\nPo e v\u00ebshtronte drejt n\u00eb sy, ku i lexoi zhg\u00ebnjimin.
\nI erdhi keq dhe e puthi n\u00eb faqe, pastaj, si t\u00eb mos kish ndodhur gj\u00eb, vazhdoi:
\n\u201cNuk kam nd\u00ebrmend t\u2019i bindem. Rri i qet\u00eb. Prind\u00ebrit e mi nuk mund t\u00eb na shohin. Jan\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb n\u00eb pun\u00eb.\u201d
\nMiri iu afrua, i largoi nga syt\u00eb nj\u00eb tuf\u00eb flok\u00ebsh dhe me t\u00eb prasmen e dor\u00ebs i p\u00ebrk\u00ebdheli but\u00ebsisht fytyr\u00ebn.
\nXhoana mbylli syt\u00eb dhe psher\u00ebtiu.
\nMe gishtin tregues i vizatoi konturet e buz\u00ebve.
\nAjo hapi pak goj\u00ebn dhe ia puthi leht\u00eb.
\nIshte hera e par\u00eb q\u00eb e kalonin at\u00eb kufi, por asnj\u00eb prej t\u00eb dyve nuk u \u00e7udit dhe as u tremb. Dukej nj\u00eb fat i paracaktuar qysh se kishin lindur.
\nBuz\u00ebt e tyre u prek\u00ebn \u00ebmb\u00ebl, nd\u00ebrsa krah\u00ebt e tij t\u00eb fort\u00eb i pushtuan trupin e holl\u00eb, akoma t\u00eb paformuar. E shtr\u00ebngoi leht\u00eb, sikur t\u00eb kishte frik\u00eb mos e l\u00ebndonte. Iu f\u00ebrkua me trupin e vet, por pa i hequr rrobat nga trupi i saj.
\nU shijuan k\u00ebshtu her\u00ebn e par\u00eb. Dhe ky ishte ve\u00e7 fillimi.
\nNd\u00ebrsa mendonte, ndjeu t\u00eb fryj\u00eb pas shpine.
\nNj\u00eb fllad i leht\u00eb e mb\u00ebshtolli t\u00eb gjith\u00ebn. Mbylli syt\u00eb dhe vari kok\u00ebn pas. Ishte era q\u00eb e shpinte n\u00eb t\u00eb shkuar\u00ebn, q\u00eb i b\u00ebnte t\u00eb ndjente arom\u00ebn e f\u00ebmij\u00ebris\u00eb, parfumin e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb, t\u00eb orendive, t\u00eb njer\u00ebzve. Arom\u00ebn e Mirit\u2026
\nPo, midis t\u00eb tjerave e ndjeu dhe at\u00eb, t\u00eb pagabuesh\u00ebm, unik.
\nFlladi u b\u00eb puhiz\u00eb e leht\u00eb pas veshit t\u00eb saj, nj\u00eb frym\u00ebmarrje e ngroht\u00eb dhe delikate, nj\u00eb p\u00ebshp\u00ebritje.
\nIu duk t\u00eb d\u00ebgjonte nj\u00eb z\u00eb q\u00eb th\u00ebrriste emrin e saj.
\nNj\u00eb z\u00eb i njohur q\u00eb e b\u00ebri t\u00eb kthehej vrullsh\u00ebm, e frik\u00ebsuar, p\u00ebr t\u2019u ndeshur me nj\u00eb buz\u00ebqeshje, nj\u00eb buz\u00ebqeshje q\u00eb i ngriti zemr\u00ebn pesh\u00eb.
\n\u201cMiriii!\u201d Thirri fort. \u201c\u00c7far\u00eb b\u00ebn ti k\u00ebtu? Kujtova se kishe ikur si pjesa m\u00eb e madhe e njer\u00ebzve n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb fshat t\u00eb humbur.\u201d
\n\u201cT\u00eb prisja. Ka vite q\u00eb t\u00eb pres \u00e7do dit\u00eb. Gjithmon\u00eb kam besuar se do t\u00eb vinte koha t\u00eb ktheheshe.\u201d
\nU p\u00ebrqafuan me dashuri. Kishte 30 vjet q\u00eb nuk shiheshin.
\nAjo, n\u00eb vit t\u00eb dyt\u00eb t\u00eb shkoll\u00ebs s\u00eb mesme, ishte trasferuar n\u00eb nj\u00eb qytet tjet\u00ebr. M\u00eb von\u00eb prind\u00ebrit kishin emigruar jasht\u00eb shtetit dhe e kishin marr\u00eb me vete.
\nNuk kishte pasur mund\u00ebsi t\u00eb shkonte ta takonte, ta shikonte.
\n\u201cSa m\u00eb kishte marr\u00eb malli! Sa e lumtur jam q\u00eb t\u00eb shoh p\u00ebrs\u00ebri!\u201d I tha duke e p\u00ebrqafuar.
\n\u201cMos m\u00eb pyet!\u201d Iu p\u00ebrgjigj Miri duke e puthur dhe marr\u00eb er\u00eb.
\n\u201cPa dale t\u00eb t\u00eb shoh pak? Ngjan shum\u00eb i ri\u2026 duket sikur koha p\u00ebr ty ka ndalur rrjedh\u00ebn. M\u00eb thuaj sekretin!\u201d
\nMiri i buz\u00ebqeshi duke ngritur supet, por nuk foli.
\nN\u00eb vend t\u00eb p\u00ebrgjigjes, i tha:
\n\u201cPse nuk hyjm\u00eb brenda?\u201d
\n\u201cVet\u00ebm kisha pak frik\u00eb. Thon\u00eb se sht\u00ebpit\u00eb e braktisura jan\u00eb t\u00eb banuara prej fantazmave\u2026 e di?\u201d
\n\u201cFrik\u00eb prej fantazmave? E p\u00ebrse? N\u00ebse kan\u00eb qen\u00eb njer\u00ebz q\u00eb t\u00eb kan\u00eb dashur dhe i ke dashur, nuk do t\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebnin kurr\u00eb keq.
\nPastaj jam un\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb mbroj.\u201d Iu p\u00ebrgjigj duke i v\u00ebn\u00eb krahun shpatullave. Xhoana u mb\u00ebshtet tek trupi i tij dhe bashk\u00eb u drejtuan tek hyrja.
\nSapo kaluan der\u00ebn, ndjeu s\u00ebrish at\u00eb fluks ajri t\u00eb ftoht\u00eb t\u00eb vinte nga brenda.
\nE trembur, u kthye nga miku i vjet\u00ebr. Shikimi i tij i qet\u00eb, qet\u00ebsoi edhe at\u00eb.
\nM\u00eb pas nguliti v\u00ebshtrimin p\u00ebrreth.
\nMuret, p\u00ebr t\u00eb cil\u00ebt ishte b\u00ebr\u00eb aq sakrific\u00eb, ishin rr\u00ebnuar, kishin r\u00ebn\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb se gjysma.<\/p>\n
\u00c7atia pothuajse nuk ekzistonte. Nga porta e oborrit nuk arrije dot t\u00eb perceptoje gjith\u00eb shkat\u00ebrrimin por, kur hyje brenda, kuptoje mir\u00eb cfar\u00eb kishte ndodhur.
\nMe Mirin p\u00ebrshkroi \u00e7do dhom\u00eb, duke e quajtur n\u00eb em\u00ebr: k\u00ebtu gjendej korridori q\u00eb kishte funksionin edhe t\u00eb sallonit, k\u00ebtu dhoma e prind\u00ebrve, kjo ishte kuzhina dhe m\u00eb n\u00eb fund \u2026 ja.. dhoma ime!
\nIshte \u00e7do gj\u00eb bosh. Kishte vet\u00ebm mbeturina, por midis atyre rr\u00ebnojave, ajo, o ndoshta t\u00eb dy, kujtuan \u00e7astet e nxehta intime t\u00eb kaluara s\u00eb bashku.
\nXhoana i k\u00ebrkoi nj\u00eb puthje. Miri ia plot\u00ebsoi d\u00ebshir\u00ebn.
\nPasi spostoi disa rr\u00ebnoja, Miri hoqi rrobat, i palosi duke b\u00ebr\u00eb nj\u00eb dyshek t\u00eb vog\u00ebl, t\u00eb cilin e vuri p\u00ebrtok\u00eb. Ajo e v\u00ebshtroi e habitur, pa nxjerr\u00eb z\u00eb.
\nAt\u00ebher\u00eb ai e mb\u00ebshteti but\u00ebsisht n\u00eb at\u00eb shtrat, filloi t\u2019i puthte buz\u00ebt e bukura, t\u2019ia hante leht\u00eb me kafshime t\u00eb vogla, e m\u00eb pas i k\u00ebrkoi t\u00eb mbyllte syt\u00eb.
\nXhoana ndjeu q\u00eb po e zhvishte, rrobat filluan t\u2019i rr\u00ebshqisnin n\u00eb trup gati pa e prekur. Dukej sikur ishte era q\u00eb po ia hiqte.
\nAjo er\u00eb misterioze dhe sensuale q\u00eb i p\u00ebrk\u00ebdhelte l\u00ebkur\u00ebn dhe e mbushte me drith\u00ebrima t\u00eb paprovuara kurr\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb.
\nNdjeu q\u00eb po i puthte gush\u00ebn. Miri nuk po nxitohej. Po e shijonte leht\u00eb, duke i rritur d\u00ebshir\u00ebn.
\nKishte t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn drojtje delikate si dikur adoleshent\u00eb edhe pse tani ishte burr\u00eb, me goxha trup.
\nXhoana ishte e padurueshme. L\u00ebvizte pareshtur. Mezi priste t\u00eb p\u00ebrjetonte \u00e7astet q\u00eb i kishin dhuruar nj\u00ebri-tjetrit dikur dhe q\u00eb p\u00ebr vite me radh\u00eb kishte \u00ebnd\u00ebrruar.
\n\u201cM\u00eb \u00e7mende!\u201d I p\u00ebshp\u00ebriti.
\nMiri vet\u00ebm sa e prekte leht\u00eb, gati as pesh\u00ebn e tij nuk e ndjente mbi trupin e saj e megjithat\u00eb ia ndiente pranin\u00eb, t\u00eb gjall\u00eb dhe pulsuese.
\nE p\u00ebrqafonte, e puthte, e shtr\u00ebngonte Mirin sikur t\u00eb donte t\u00eb sigurohej q\u00eb ai ishte aty, me t\u00eb, dhe q\u00eb do ishin s\u00ebrish s\u00eb bashku, si dikur, p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb.
\n\u00c7do her\u00eb q\u00eb e prekte, ndiente me drith\u00ebrim\u00eb at\u00eb ajrin e fresk\u00ebt q\u00eb i p\u00ebrk\u00ebdhelte l\u00ebkur\u00ebn.
\n\u00c7do her\u00eb q\u00eb e merrte dhe e rrotullonte, ndiente q\u00eb e ngrinte me leht\u00ebsi, pa asnj\u00eb sforcim, n\u00eb krah\u00ebt e tij t\u00eb fort\u00eb.
\nI ngjante sikur fluturonte.
\nMiri l\u00ebvizte but\u00eb, si p\u00ebr t\u00eb mbushur boshll\u00ebkun e gjith\u00eb atyre viteve t\u00eb humbura.
\nXhoana ndihej si n\u00eb nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr dimension. Derisa t\u00eb lodhur, u braktis\u00ebn, me k\u00ebmb\u00eb n\u00eb tok\u00eb pasi fluturuan n\u00eb aj\u00ebr, ajo mbi t\u00eb, ai mbi rroba, n\u00eb mes t\u00eb rr\u00ebnojave.
\n\u201cIshte kaq bukur, si n\u00eb nj\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr\u201d I tha Xhoana nd\u00ebrsa qet\u00ebsonte gul\u00e7et n\u00eb kraharorin e tij. \u201cSi dikur por nj\u00ebmij\u00eb her\u00eb m\u00eb intensiv.\u201d
\n\u201cPremtom\u00eb q\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb m\u00eb harrosh kurr\u00eb!\u201d I tha ai nd\u00ebrsa luante me flok\u00ebt e saj.
\n\u201cSi mund t\u2019a b\u00ebj k\u00ebt\u00eb?\u201d Iu p\u00ebrgjigj. \u201cKe qen\u00eb dashuria ime e par\u00eb, aventura ime e par\u00eb, je ura ime me t\u00eb shkuar\u00ebn.\u201d
\nU ngrit\u00ebn. Xhoana filloi t\u00eb vishej.
\n\u201cM\u00eb duhet t\u00eb shkoj,\u201d I tha ajo \u201cm\u00eb presin. Po munda, do vij s\u00ebrish pasdite.\u201d
\nMiri buz\u00ebqeshi me nj\u00eb ng\u00ebrdheshje t\u00eb hidhur. E puthi p\u00ebrs\u00ebri, nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr her\u00eb, para se t\u00eb ndaheshin p\u00ebrfundimisht.
\nNd\u00ebrsa largohej Xhoana ktheu kok\u00ebn pas, por prej Mirit s\u2019kishte gjurm\u00eb.
\n\u201cU zhduk q\u00eb t\u00eb mos e shihja t\u00eb qante.\u201d Mendoi \u201cgjithmon\u00eb k\u00ebshtu ka qen\u00eb. Q\u00eb i vog\u00ebl donte t\u00eb dukej i fort\u00eb.\u201d
\nXhoana,\u201d- I thirri taksisti q\u00eb e shoq\u00ebronte dhe q\u00eb e priste n\u00eb rrug\u00ebn kryesore. \u201ce mbarove k\u00ebt\u00eb udh\u00ebtim n\u00ebp\u00ebr kujtime? Mund t\u00eb ham\u00eb drek\u00ebn tani dhe t\u00eb kthehemi n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJa edhe pak!\u201d Iu p\u00ebrgjigj \u201cm\u00eb lejo t\u00eb shkoj nj\u00eb \u00e7ast tek k\u00ebto varrezat e vogla, t\u00eb p\u00ebrsh\u00ebndes t\u00eb af\u00ebrmit e mi.\u201d
\nMblodhi disa lule fushe p\u00ebr t\u2019i vendosur tek varri i secilit, krenare p\u00ebr prejardhjen e saj nga k\u00ebta njer\u00ebz fisnik\u00eb.
\nHyri n\u00eb maj\u00eb t\u00eb gishtave, si p\u00ebr t\u00eb mos i shqet\u00ebsuar n\u00eb gjumin e p\u00ebrjetsh\u00ebm.
\nN\u00eb dalje, n\u00eb t\u00eb majt\u00ebn e saj, n\u00eb nj\u00eb vend pak m\u00eb t\u00eb ngritur, nj\u00eb qivur ndryshe nga t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt i t\u00ebrhoqi v\u00ebmendjen.
\nU afrua p\u00ebr t\u00eb par\u00eb kujt i p\u00ebrkiste. Njohu foton. Lexoi emrin:
\nMIRI B.
\nDATA E LINDJES
\nDATA E VDEKJES.
\nLlogariti vitet q\u00eb kishte jetuar. Ishin vet\u00ebm nj\u00ebzet\u00eb e tet\u00eb. Qau mbi mermerin e ftoht\u00eb. P\u00ebrk\u00ebdheli foton. Dukej sikur i buz\u00ebqeshte. Me zor kap\u00ebrceu l\u00ebmshin q\u00eb i ishte mbledhur n\u00eb fyt dhe gjeti forc\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00eb folur:
\n\u201cHoqe dor\u00eb nga gjumi p\u00ebr t\u00eb m\u00eb pritur. Tani, m\u00eb n\u00eb fund, mund t\u00eb prehesh i qet\u00eb.
\nLamtumir\u00eb Miri e faleminderit.\u201d
\nP\u00ebshp\u00ebriti mes lot\u00ebsh k\u00ebto fjal\u00eb, mb\u00ebshteti mbi varr lulet e fundit dhe u largua.<\/p>\n
(Tregim i shk\u00ebputur nga libri im i dyt\u00eb
\n\u201cRiflessa in uno specchio rotto=Reflektuar n\u00eb nj\u00eb pasqyr\u00eb t\u00eb thyer)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Erida Siqeca Petriti P\u00cbSHP\u00cbRITJA E ER\u00cbS Tregim Xhoana iu afrua port\u00ebs s\u00eb sht\u00ebpis\u00eb s\u00eb braktisur, o t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn asaj q\u00eb kishte ngelur prej saj dhe e pushtoi nj\u00eb ndjesi \u00ebmb\u00eblsie. Kishte koh\u00eb q\u00eb nuk kish shkelur n\u00eb at\u00eb vend, por kujtimet ishin t\u00eb gjalla. U kthye mbrapsh n\u00eb koh\u00eb , n\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebrin\u00eb e larg\u00ebt, pik\u00ebrisht […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":2611,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2610","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-proze"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/migjeni.se\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2610","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/migjeni.se\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/migjeni.se\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/migjeni.se\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/migjeni.se\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2610"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/migjeni.se\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2610\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/migjeni.se\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2611"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/migjeni.se\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2610"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/migjeni.se\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2610"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/migjeni.se\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2610"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}